Good morning everyone, I come to you at about 1:30 AM and for some reason im sitting at home wide awake. Ususallly when im awake at this hour im out with someone or lying in bed trying to sleep, but I don't know how easy sleep is going to come tonight. I really got ALOT on my mind, the whole job thing that im sure everyone is sick of hearing about. However there was one job in the paper that kind of caught my attention, it was a teaching job for a CMA. I really dont know exactly what a CMA would be able to credibly teach, but im gonna send an application in cause it sparked my attention. However i think ive been able to get my options pretty well outlined

1: I stay at sheetz. Take the shift supervisor test and learn how to make food. Supervisors make good money and I can advance further there. I like the job, but the problem is that I dont know if ill like it years down the road. And anyone who looks at sheetz as a lesser form of work, well,,,IM sorry but you are dead wrong. I work my butt off there for a job I like to do and for some reason am quite proud of, and if people cant respect that, well I guess thats tough

2: Go for the M.A thing one more time: I went to school for it, I know the job. Problem is im not sure if I want to get into it again, ive been extremely let down the last 2 times, what says it wont happen again, but then again, or maybe if I actually get a GOOD job where they keep me or dont treat me like yesterdays garbage then it may work

3: Go back to school: OK,,,this is really up in the air. Parts of me want to go to school, but I have no clue where or for what, but I would love to go back,,,but will I love it when im ankle deep in school work?

OK,,,im still thinking this through,,,but for some reason I cant seem to get it out of my head tonight,,,

So anyway, the 46th is coming along nice. We got a new song called "The C,B & Q railroad" which really moves and potential to become a 46th mainstay,,,right up there with "The Mermaid." God I can't wait to go reenacting this year, but as for right now a Saturday trip to Gettysburg will do me good to wet my appetite (and im sorry Amy if im bugging you talking about it alot,,,but hey,,,WOOT to random trips to Gettysburg)

AFter alot of ideas bouncing around in my head, I finally started something new in my little blue notebook. (And on my Alter blog "Passing From yesterday") I know where I want the story to go,,,but I dont know how im gonna get it there. Kinda funny though,,,I actually had a dream where I was the guy in the story, which was kinda odd,,,but the thing on Passing from Yesterday is only the beginning theres more to come

Played Star Wars D & D,,,where Kurgan The Wookiee almost died,,,but in the end he was just in horrible pain

We are catsitting this week. Don's girlfriend needs a place to hide Sammy the car for a few days, so she is in the open arms of the Hughes Household.

Ill try to update more often then the past few times,,,but until then

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Well I gotta say that the past few days have been quite nice. Its been about a week now since ive quit the Dr's office and I gotta say im a happier guy for it. Im not a big tangles pile of nerves anymore. (well,,no more than I was before I had the job,,,,you get my point!) Anyhow, im still up in the air as to where I go from here. The college thing is a big option and I really don't want to get into it unless im like %3000 sure I want to do it, but I gotta say that im finally realizing that I have a lot more time then im giving myself credit for. But at his point ive come as far as to the conclusion that no matter where I go from here, im much better off out of Dr. Zavahir's office, apart from my own feelings on the matter and what the job did to me, ive talked to people (including other doctors and CLN instructors) who said that the guy is a complete (insert not nice word here)

LONG STORY SHORT: Im in good spirits with my current situation

Well Amy's gonna be back from the DR soon and Tracey's home Monday, and Dan's home. So that's kinda good that my good friends are home for a bit.

One last bit I kinda figured I would pass along:

Ever have one of those nights where you have REALLY screwed up dreams? Well the first one I had was a dream that felt amazingly real,,,,and it was a dream about not being able to sleep. It was like,,,I was getting on the computer and watching a movie and all the stuff I do when I cant sleep. Well, then the house got broken into by some guy I went to junior high school with, which was kind of a cue that was dreaming. Then the NEXT one (quite odd I remember 2 dreams in one night) was strange cause it had to do with something ive been meaning to start to write. See,,,ive had this story in my head ive been meaning to put on paper,,,,and the dram tied in with it. Odd stuff

Well kids im sure you have better things to do, so ill let you go,,,take care

Good Fight Good Night